Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I know I told you that I'm not a jealous person. Driving home that night I realized why. It's true that I have a deep appreciation for people and want them to experience all that they want to; all the pleasures and all the love that can be had...but that twinge still exists inside of me. I've shut off my feelings for so long that being jealous cannot exist. If there is nothing on the table of value then nothing can get taken from me. It was a strange revelation to know that I could love so openly and yet still feel lonely inside. Until I can actually care and let myself be vulnerable, jealousy is the least of my worries.