Monday, November 30, 2009

Are you feeling good or feeling bad? mostly both...

I couldn't decide whether to post the Japanese version or the translated version of this here are both.  Pizzacato Five is awesome and this song came into my head as I was trying to write (but failing!)  lol

 this version is so pretty and I need to make a replica of that dress for myself....grean boa-trimmed bell sleeves, oh yeah!

 here's the English plus the bonus of Isaac Mizrahi, Naomi Campbell and Linda Evangelista.  Very happy fashion.   

Not yet mid-week

Sensitivity is unfortunate at times.  Sullen moods make me want to laugh yet that angers the melancholy which wants to sulk quietly in the corner.  WTF?  Grrr.  Maybe laugh.  In the corner.  Upside down, at least to smile. 

Saturday, November 28, 2009

What this could be (and is in an alternate reality of which there are infinite)

La le vida don't make no sense....

that's not really what that drawing means.
I am not supposed to explain it.  Here's more clarity: 

So, I'm sorry.  I feel it now.  And that black
is making it hurt.  "Hold off, hold off," it says.
There's a secret in there which I won't
reveal.  It ties this together in the most
beautiful way.  I think I'll keep it.  And
extend it out in earnest.  Convey my
truth in the quietest ways.  Hope it helps.

Stars and drawings

You may have been sleeping but I was wide awake listening to some folk music.  It turns out that being relaxed is an amazing feeling.  Where do all these doors come from?  And the currents?  Some of this is new to me, but, well you may already know...I'm quite special.  I feel special right now.  I'm filled with liquid gold.  It's for you.  Spend it wisely and seek me sometime.  Laugh.  Hug me now and kiss me on the cheek.  I want to keep feeling special. 

In between

grass lake and squirrel
sitting atop the patio
furniture.  Hear wind
wrestle leaves from
branches.  Leave it
alone.  Don't think
I'm leaving you.


Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Happy Thanksgiving!

Oh what a day!  Eating lots of terrific food with family and then relaxing.  No work.  Wine.  This is the best holiday ever, except for Halloween.  One of my favorite things to do is make pie crust so I am in charge of the pumpkin pie.  Was up until 5 this morning making yummies :)  Now I get to go eat them, woohooo!  I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday today.  Enjoy your food, families and football and put those in an order you wish! 

Monday, November 23, 2009


There are eyes
of ocean green
seagull landing
never punctuation
along waves cresting
walking strings
resting in gray
gentle lines listless

The Cave

You are a dying man with r.e.m. eyes
who tries to sleep off the dreary waves.
You are all-encompassing, engrossing.
The sheets you toss off your death bed
wrap around the ankles of your lover.
She falls to the hard wood.  Your lover
turns the sheets into colors.

Dying man with no wishes.

The lay of the land beyond
bed rest.  Is there grey or a
wide landscape of bluegrass,
none know.  Tear it from
magazines.  Slowly...

Your narrator sees these
opinions before you.  Orate.
Obfuscate just like a vampire.
Jump to the top left corner
of the ceiling.  Those cobwebs
have dust in them.  We have it now,
the scene: bed, wood, sheets, dust.

Where is this place exactly?
You leave it to the vultures.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Holy Cow

I finally feel like I am catching up on everything. Thank you new moon!! I cannot begin to explain this year...hang on, I just lied. I can begin to explain this year: I got what I asked for. Sometimes this isn't always pretty and most of the time it looks different than what I expected, but it surely happens. Life follows through with my ever changing plans. lol

What does this mean? It means I am living in an absolutely beautiful place surrounded by loving family and friends and I'm being given a helping hand to build the life of my dreams. As I put my mind around these words life seems so simple. At least now there is enough clarity in my head to allow this situation to be what it is: peaceful. At last!

I even made a new friend!  He posed for a picture before freaking out, haha.


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Unruly mind finds Eris in Aries

Heathered acrylic? Stuck
zipper almost

teeth, guts,
love, fucking beautiful.

Interested going against
common grain

sand on
nearby shoreline ephemera.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

New House

Oh there is a lasting complex added
along with too long fingernails to
type it down without many, many mistakes.
There may be a dog involved who trips on
an area rug and maybe pees on it. A green
rug and a kitchen with beige walls. A
glass canister half-filled with paint
brushes waiting patiently to be cleaned.
Work gloves. Sports team hats. Jackets.

Tea cup with tea bag at the bottom.
Empty silverware drawer. Wood-saw snores
shaking boundaries until the prize falls
out of the box.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Moving, moving
leaves are
swirling, grass
is leaning
against solid

fast poem

I'm a goddamn thread
fucker wishing you were
here to share in the breeze
of four twelve am salt water
magic where boxes become
habitat for possibility.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Not to End

Where the similarities ebb.
One line is wavy to never make contact.
The other reaches too far ahead.
Dissimilar only in longitude.
Too far behind never approaches.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Rainbow Rachel

Hope everyone had a great Halloween.  I did!  Representing a natural phenomenon was a true pleasure.  My hair came out a bit more like ocean green/blue but when have I ever been upset about green hair?  I was beat when it came to the costume contest because some one brought in his dog...dogs always win, but I did sing a song and that is something.  Woohoo for dressing up (and drawing clouds on yourself!).