Saturday, December 23, 2017

Mountain Theme

In the end there was space and there was mountain.


My name is Rachel, but yes?

We live on an island in outer space. It’s called, nevermind. Our air is neon yellow, orange, and slate. Are you OK with that?


Would you prefer a water residence or one with a view?

Both, please.

Very well. Which patch would you like to call home? You can slide down any color at any time.

I like the tallest, please. Red.

We only have tan available. That was a trick question.

This is a little frustrating. Can’t you just take me there?

Of course. 


I witnessed my first inverse sunset tonight. From the top of tan mountain where I can slide down into the ocean.

I have changed my name to Rebecca. But also go by Stan.

My children are to remain at home, on Earth.

I have brought my cat Bucky. (Purr Buckminster the Pony)

He is pleased with this location. And with the gorny weevils to chase.


anticipation. Obscured 
from Black Mountains 

by a ball 
on the 

a cabin
out of sassafras.

Fireplace stones pop 
yellow from

suck bark 
straws and smell

the wide open 
future. Mmmm.

didn’t we
do this sooner?

Tuesday, October 3, 2017


where does the higher elevation come in?
I met you in a paper building of x marks and ink.

Bjork talks of one day and see-through rendezvous.
I’ve seen that, too. outside against the bricks.

not lying, but never fully with the forests of flowers
or the too many rocks at the beach I grew up on.

almost there with pulling away from not good enough.
not sure if that’s the case in the land by the pond.

I’m sure that I’m smarter than this and yet creaks 
in my gut are overexposed and too crinkly for quiet.

this is straightened up bullshit where I want to say
that it’s all true and my promise was not mine.

it was the shed layer of Connecticut upbringing.
Waspy, crusty, idiocy where blue is better than black.

my not so secret emblazoned in blogs and sitcoms.
not so special of a feeling that’s covered in all the songs.

too big, too common, to ugly cry. Stoked, surfs up.
haha. So “I didn’t think I deserved this.”

I didn’t think this could happen for me. 

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Desert Wolf

Giggling updraft with cotton candy stuck
in a cloud and the sun shining through
water that rainbows but makes my fingers
sticky. There’s moisture in the air because
we’re in Paradise Valley in monsoon season.

Intersexual plants teal and chartreuse the 
sand colored horizon where purple sunsets
show the reflecting sun where to grow.

Leaving the desert with its heart-shaped 
nopales who's spines tingle your leg as you 
walk. Hares greet the sage leaves. Quail 
bumble under dehydrated trees. We never 
saw a wolf shimmer on the pavement.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

there are eyes

There are eyes to see with and there are eyes to be.
Reflections in retina kaleidoscopes tear apart right side ups.
Dismembering our recollections only to wire synapses 
maybe in our favor but probably not.

We dismiss our old crushes and obsess about decade old albums.
We see ourselves in outdated cutoffs and wave bangs.

Where did we leave our eyes?

We jump into the being ones and forget they see everything.
We think we can choose what gets embedded in our memories.
Refresh your journal and relive the week that you forgot to eat.

When in your past did you feel the sexiest?
Try on that bra again.
And fill your eyes with dew.

For Sherry

We sometimes forget that celebrations happen underground
tiny vessels of nutrients are gathered and exchanged with golden fanfare
limbs created and redistributed in neon nonchalance
creating momentum for the bloom to seduce our eyes.

We think that picking a bouquet and handing it off to our love is the gesture
we assume that life hasn’t thought about itself
that the cells of each contributing force don’t celebrate with us.
Every chain link matters in the expression of care.

In allowing the creation of our beautiful things to have consciousness
we bring the divine into our thoughtfulness.
We fill out the circle of good deeds from conception to receiving.

We’re all in this together and may as well tip our hats to the fungi.

Sunday, January 22, 2017


Your energy is like a blanket heaved at me with no regard for timespace. It Caspers my head and even though I can see through the loose weave, everything is effervescent and golden. There’s no way to take off the blanket unless I trick myself into believing that it was there all along. In which case the gold is part of me and there’s nothing to feel awkward about. It’s silly how many fables your face appears in and how many meditative moments are absorbed by your beating heart in my hands. I’m too old for games now, maybe poetry too, but too scared to be direct. Still worried about sanctity and shit like that. Upsetting the unit and all. As I sit on my not sky blue cushion filled with buckwheat hulls, I clear my mind of passing prose and future lines. Yet the golden fizz still exists. Maybe the blanket image isn’t working anymore because it’s not a filter. This telepathy or dimensional bond could be (ha) something real. With those fuzzy threads reaching out to be unraveled. Maybe it’s my job to share from my open wound of a soul. About how you helped me realize that love goes far beyond any physical manifestation. And that even though my original vision for what human coming together could be failed miserably, you were there to help me through it. And here you are now just when I’ve redefined what it means to be a person on this planet with more delight to share than she knows what to do with. So why you keep showing up in my meditations appears simple. You’ve been there for my heart awakenings and wall breakings, and now it’s my turn to be there for you. 

Saturday, November 5, 2016

For fun


Another thing I did in Sedona was attend a screening of Dancer. You may recognize Sergei Polunin from his "Take me to Church" (Hozier) ballet. I highly recommend seeing the documentary if it's playing near you.

I love escaping into art. It makes me feel more alive. Watching people who dedicate their lives to it is so inspiring. Sergei's story is fascinating, too. He's not the typical dancer. In fact, he arranged this performance to be his last. Here's more info:



Last night you were beside me. 
Sprawled on the lawn until it turned into a bed. 

My head nestled in the soft spot between your shoulder and chest.
I smelled you. Intertwined my hand with yours.

We stared up once more. 
Probably dreaming about what we wished was happening.

I rolled you over to face me. 
Freed my hand and placed both of mine on stubbly cheeks.

Fingers slithering to the short silver hairs on the sides of your head. 
Then down to the bare parts of your chin. 

I snuck down the back of your neck. 

Open palmed, down your side.
Then you were naked. 

I moved down grazing your manhood.
I felt your buttocks, thighs, knees.

Once completed, I took your face again.
Fell into your galaxy eyes. 

For years all I’ve wanted to do is kiss you.

I’ve imagined every scenario, every sexual position.

Yet, once given the chance, in my own fantasy.

I refrained.


feel sexy
in oversized work 

pants, purple lipstick, 
and butterfly 

Retreat Painting by my Students

I hosted a retreat for my Certified Intuitive Artist Practitioners last week. We were in Oak Creek Canyon, Sedona for 6 nights (it was blissful). And they decided to paint me a picture. It's got a lot of meaning within the colors and shapes, but I saw a bit more. So I made a poem about it.

Karma Pose 
One hand raised
threatening to 
Head to the 
side, neck

Big Desire

What I have is Big Desire.

The remedy: evolution,

honesty. (I want you)

I envision grandeur of spirit and nature.

Being scared in my tent.

Carrying bear spray to work.

Learning to bike in snow.

Loving more than one at a time.
(In more way than one.)

No gender. No sexual preference.

Bursting sun.

Dancing through storm.

Inviting all who care to watch.


Jumping through life.

A kid high on hopscotch.


finger buried in sand
Tangiers’ ocean crowded

wave spilling trout out
the wrong water source

in the back of the cabin
a loose door cracks open

hinges are rusty and unlatched

a breeze sneaks in
during nap time

spiral thoughts uplift 

from dark to distilled

Monday, September 19, 2016


You look like a doll. 
You’re my age, right?
Wow, you’re a big, beautiful, blue being!
You are so feminine. 
You are gender fluid. 
Your eyes hold the cosmos. 
Let’s be honest, you have a long nose. 
That would explain your unusual face shape. 
We have a prickly complexion.  
You are Pleiadian. 
You are Zeta. 
I see you’re getting to know you’re a Hybrid. 
You have virgin hair. 
You dance? 
I never would have pegged you as a snob! 
You are such a lesbian. 
Oh, you’re bisexual. 
I ordered the vegan pizza for you. 
How long have you been a naturalist? 
This is my wife. 
My Girlfriend has a gluten allergy. 
I have the best daughters in the world. 
I’m so proud of you, you’ve grown into an amazing woman. 
Oh, you’re an artist like Bonnie.
Spiritual teacher, poet, intuitive, channeler, psychic, entrepreneur.
You need boundaries.
Your posture is horrible. 
Your chakras are unbalanced.
You’re not grounded.
OK, smiley. 

I never would have guessed.